I don't want to give myself the illusion that I have more choice than I do. For example, some people believe that before they were born, they chose to live on this earth and learn specific lessons.
I have no way of knowing if this is true for myself. And while I do have a lot of power, there are a lot of other people who have power, too, as well as nonsentient forces such as weather and inanimate objects.
On the other hand, I don't want to give up power that I do have available. There are some who believe that there is some kind of divine plan or guidance for us, and that if we just go along with it, we'll be okay somehow. I have been trying to figure out if this is true for a while.
I'm thinking now that the truth lies somewhere in the middle. I don't know exactly where.